There was a lot of bizarre shit in my life, Mickey warning I am a big fan of Disney and proud of it shirt but the crazy part was that the anger that I built up through my life, had come out in tears when I met her. She would hold me, and tell me I wasn’t the monster everyone thought I was. Then she committed suicide, her father would rape her and she couldn’t take it anymore. I remember when I was at her funeral, something snapped in me. She was like the motherly figure I always wanted, even though we were the same age. Hate was born in me, not just anger. But now it was rage slowly building up. I decided I was never gonna give anyone compassion again so that I wouldn’t become attached to anyone ever again.
That bit me in the ass because Mickey warning I am a big fan of Disney and proud of it shirt assaulting a girl who loved me. I didn’t do it out of lust, but out of hate. I didn’t realize until later it wasn’t because I hated her, but because I hated myself. How am I any better than always father? I’ll never be forgiven, and I shouldn’t. I’m a stupid piece of shit. I’d like to thank everyone who was there for me, not even them, but I’d like to thank everyone who hurt me, and I’d like to forgive them. I’d like to thank them because they showed what love really is to me. When you live your life through hate, the discovery of love is an amazing thing. I might be stupid for thanking them, but I’m doing it anyway.